Was Jesus
right handed or left handed? Was he
tall or short? What color were his
eyes? Did He wear His hair long, or was Jesus
fashionably bald? Was He the skinny
aesthetic type, or, as I like to think of Him, was He a jolly, rotund, 280
pounder? What do you think?
There are so
many details that the New Testament never bothers to tell us. We are never even directly told if Jesus was
ever married or not, leaving room for all sorts of speculation. So when we read a detail in the Gospel like,
“he threw aside his cloak, sprang up, and came to Jesus,” we have to wonder
if the Gospel writer, in this case St. Mark, doesn’t mean for it to have more
significance than a mere detail.
Bartimaeus,
the blind man, “threw aside his cloak”.
Why? What is this cloak? What does it symbolize? How does Bartimaeus cloak himself, i.e. hide
his true self? It is a cloak of
self-pity? “Oh, poor me, I am blind, I’m
a beggar, poor me.” Did you ever cloak
yourself in self-pity? Hide yourself
from truly facing life and the work of relationship by cloaking yourself in
self-absorption, self-pity? I certainly
have.
Or maybe it
is “tough man” cloak Bartimaeus had to throw off: you know, “So I’m blind. So
I’m a beggar. I can handle it. I’m
tough. I don’t need anyone. It’s fine.”
And so he hides his weakness, his vulnerability, his need, cloaking it
with false bravado. This is a cloak I
think we guys like to use. “I don’t need
to see a doctor. I don’t need any
therapy. I don’t need anyone; I’m just
fine.” Yehh, right.
Or maybe it
was a cloak of anger, or of false humility, or low self-esteem, or some other
persona and act that Bartimaeus adopted to cloak his true identity. He did this to protect himself, like putting
on a shell, but in so doing he cut himself off from others, and so cut himself
off from Jesus.
What cloaks
do you have? Any personas or masks you
adopt to cloak your true self, and so protect yourself, but only end up cutting
yourself off from others?
We all have
them. And like Bartimaeus, we need to
throw these cloaks aside in order to come to Jesus. We need to come to Jesus as we truly are, not
with our masks, our acts, our cloaks, but throwing all those false selves
aside, come to Him with our excess flab and warts and our weaknesses, as we
truly are. For that is the only person Jesus
loves.
Back to the
Gospel story: Jesus asked Bartimaeus a
strange question. "What do you
want me to do for you?" Hey,
the guy is blind. Isn’t it obvious what
he needs? Why does Jesus ask such a
silly question?
Well, first
of all, note this is the exact same question that Jesus, in last Sunday’s
Gospel, put to James and John when they came with a request to Jesus. Jesus wants us to state what it is we want,
because Jesus is asking about something deeper than physical needs. Jesus is pushing the issue at a much deeper,
more spiritual sense of blindness than just physical eyesight.
Just a few
chapters before in St Mark’s Gospel the disciples totally misunderstand Jesus
when He warns them to ‘beware the yeast
of the Pharisees…’ They mistakenly think
it is because they forgot to bring bread.
And Jesus said to them, “Why are
you talking about having no bread? Do
you still not perceive or understand? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes, and fail to see?” (Mk
8:17-18) Jesus is always asking about
blindness of the heart, not of the eyes.
And so Jesus says to Bartimaeus, “What
do you want me to do for you?” Jesus
is asking if Bartimaeus really wants to see, to understand, to comprehend God’s
plan for his life.
And the same
is true for us. Jesus asks us, “What do
you want me to do for you?” Do we really
want to see? Not everyone does. Blindness is often a lot easier, a lot more
comfortable. A dramatic instance of this
occurred in World War II when the allies liberated concentration camps, and
made the people of the towns where the camps were walk through the camps and see
what they had spent years trying to not see.
Do you see
God’s plan for you, what God wants of you in this life, and that God’s plan is
far better for you than your own plan for yourself? That the most important thing you must do is
love? That love is more important than
money, fame, power, sex, anything? Until
you truly see that, you are still blind.
Do you see
the face of Jesus in every other person in this room, in every person
you meet? Until you honestly see Him in
every person, you are still blind.
Do you want
to see that we are all brothers and sisters, regardless of our race or
nationality or language or religion? Seeing
all this and more makes a great difference, and it is not all easy. But it is true.
We must come
to Jesus, admit our blindness, and tell Him, "Master, I want to
see." I want to see your
Goodness. I want to see your Will for
me.
I want to see that you are God and I am not. I want to see you in every person I
meet.
"Master, I want to see."
This is what
it means to be a disciple. When
Bartimaeus made this request he received his sight, “and followed Jesus on
the way”. The way means more than
the road, it means Jesus’ way of life.
It is to be a follower of Jesus, it is to be a disciple.
The Gospel
today challenges us to throw aside whatever cloaks we may be hiding under, to stand
up, and come to Jesus. As today’s Gospel
tells us: "Take courage; get up, Jesus is calling you."
AMEN.